9th of July, Tuesday   Sunny

10:30 am, started browsing the 51job and job168 websites for job opportunity. But, found few ineteresting positions. And at 13:15, began to feel nausea…perhaps because of the closely shown words on the websites, perhaps because of no eating anything for breakfast and lunch.

Felt the urge to open the door and run into the open air. It’s difficult to breathe in that room, where next to the desk there’s a laptop, on whose screen is filled with words: job title, experience needed, description, qualification…everything is aggressive, saying you need to find a job, hurry up, send the resume, take the interviews, don’t have so many requirements……

Need go out, find a place, read a book, write a diary: I can’t stay in the room for one more second.

Put off the nightclothes and dressed myself. Found the trunk and looked for the diary book. Got the book and threw it on the bed, and it lay open and then I saw the diary I wrote down in this March. In Chinese, a dialuage with he. I read, then, I smiled. Then, I drawn two images, then, I smiled again…

Now, a peaceful mind. Perhaps the anxiety results from the coming of the period? Or, pushing myself too hard?......