After 2 days my diary continue:

SHUT AMBIGUITY OF OFFICE

These last two days I have been troubled so that have no mood to go on with my English diary. The question is about ambiguity of office. This view seems to be taken too seriously, for purely my personal viewpoint.

Not long ago a new employee (female) came board to our department. Then, our leaders arranged us (pointed to her and me) to complete a business trip to Guangzhou.After the returning, when someone asked me what I thought of her I said “not bad”. As a rule, I never speak evil of others, not to mention that she is my colleague and subordinate, a young girl.

 In the world there usually are some things that make you dumb. As a young man, by far I am still a bachelor (not a postgraduate, ha-ha!), what’s more, I remain healthy, positive, surefooted, kind and warm blood …So, many people, Unit leader comes on, common worker comes below, try to help me accomplish my personal problems. As mentioned above, those well-meaning but misguided began to fling us together according to the” the business trip” and “not bad” .

Frankly, I have held a conscious and cautious attitude, to some extent, a skeptical, even negative viewpoint to office romance. At first, I did not refuse publicly to other’s good intention, not because I actually feel it is right, but I do did not want to hurt her , and make those kind people consider that I am arrogant and requiring condition for high. After all, I am a young leader in other’s eyes.

The best way to solve this issue, I think, perhaps that is one-side, is that she tells all the people the association and connection is unsuitable, or has a higher goal, even she can say she looks down upon me. However, she did nothing. In contrary, she seemed very positive and enjoyed. Actually, she had a boyfriend. Of course, it was known later.

However, a piece of weakness on me, perhaps, a fatal weakness, is self-discipline and self- constraint, especially in the contact of men and women. We are just relationship between superior and subordinate in my mind so that I have nothing to do.

Poor, the matter that I had expected inevitably took place. Nearly all the people who wish me happy accused me of indifference and arrogance. After I explained the cause, even told them she was not single, those still blamed me that you just did it, and her situation was nothing to do with you.

 Gradually I found she was not simple, especially in dealing with relationships. Sometimes her speech was fearful. She tended to consider the job complicated, understand office philosophy deeply and regard all the people as her rivals. She was just like a politician at office.

However, her attitude to above relation still kept ambiguous. Even at the party the day before yesterday, when some colleagues clearly put forward the problem, and proposed her sitting beside me, she still gave an enthusiastic response.