Having left from BJ since six hours ago , i am still thrilled by what i have gone through.

Yesterday , I had a big performance, which is also an entrance text.

So embarrasing and cruel it was.

But also it was a fantastic experience.

At 12:25,I went to the pratice room by $10.

The piano was too old to sound,the window seemed to fall off,the sunshine with warmth shone me.

Abundant of musical sounds broke into my ears.

Though the music sounded wonderful when hearing one by one, it was so terrified that i heard them at the same time.

At 13:00,I got a draw-no.4.What a damn place!

And at that time,two or three schoolgirls from shenzhen sat by me.

They chatted more noisily than birds.

I hated them.

Hardly could i do anything.

From their conversation, I had known that I didn't play as well as them.

I was just an ugly duck.

How pessimistic.

I knew I was one of the best players in GZ.

But I never knew I was so limited.

Unexpectedly.

May be it was the biggest factor that affected me in the performance,i thought.

When sitting in the stage, what i felt at that time was nervous.

nervous~nervous~nervous~

Because of this, I did play terribly.

I didn't show what my level really was.

Again, I let me down.I am still in great loss.

I can't help to blame myself.

I didn't tell these to my teacher,my parents,my friends.

I just put these into the deepest part in my heart.

Still now, I am not so brave to face with these.

The head is aching.

The heart is breaking.

The wish is bursting.

The past is just the past.

I think, the quicker I stand up,the better I will gather.

It is time to adjust my emotions.

It is no crying for the failure but learning from itself.

All of this was not a so-called comfort.

I really wanna approach success,

I really wanna be a woman of success.

Nothing gonna change my mind for success.

Cheer Up bb~