these days, i always get stomach pain, i suffered from that in be last a few days..

in the morning, my father came and meet me, i do not know what i feel about that, i guess that i miss him. he also get a bad cold, he looked very bad...he is not as strong as before...i am so worry about him

last night i went back from rigs' place, i feel bad too, i feels along and empty, although i have so many friends, i have my families here, i won all things which i should and should not get, why i feel that, because of my girlfriend? maybe not, she love me so much! but i even cried in my dream, what happened...

after dinner, i went to get my hair cut, that is a place where i use to live in, i really miss there, after got my hair cut, i just walk on the street, i feel so...lonely, i called my girlfriend but she said that she was shopping with her friend, i did not say i need you now, so she just kept on...i went to a web bar, i though i've played for a very long time, but just nearly 1 hour...

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME...?   once i asked myself that what all of this for? ...

whatever,  this one is so missing, even i do not know what i really want say and what kind of...result i want to get.maybe it is that i just want to say something....

thanks...