All of a Sudden

The winter holiday of 2009 is two-month long.I finished my exams and went home by train.It’s a cold winter,both in Beijing and Qingdao.

      I am in a single parent family since I was 13.My mom and I depend on each other.I am a college student and I always think I am a adult,a grown-up.Until that moment,I realized I really grow up.

      I went home for holiday as usual.Mom always made food I like,waited for me at home.Her smile face is very warm.

      Then begins the holiday.It was cold outside and the wind was heavy.So I stayed at home instead of going out hanging with my friends.I stayed in my room and did my stuff,searching the internet,playing guitar, or reciding some English words.Mom came to my room saw me every ten minutes,bringing me the water,giving me fresh fruit to eat,and reading the daily newspaper with me.She was retired so she doesn’t go to work.When I was tired of the stuff,I stopped and got out to see what mom was doing.Here was her daily stuff:get up at 7:30,wash up and get me breakfast(when I get up,I can eat delicious food),clean the house(washing the floor and doing the laundry)8:30~10:00,get some break,make lunch at 10:30.We had lunch at 11:30.She got a nap at noon and in the afternoon she would plan the supper.In the evening,we watched TV and go to bed at 10:00p.m.Then another day started……

One day,I companied her in the kitchen,watching her cooking.For one time,I watched her so carefully,her white hair covered by the black hair,her wrinkles round her eyes,her red hands due to chill……All of sudden,I felt hurt.My heart is hurt.Because I cared mom so badly.Because I blamed myself for my carelessness,for my innocence,for my selfishness.And all of a sudden,I realized,mom was always giving and I was always receiving.I shouldn’t take mom’s love for granted.It wasn’t fair……With tear in my eyes,I rush out of the kitchen.In the bathroom,I looked into the mirror,talking to myself:from now on,you are a big girl.You have to act like adult.Care for mom,do it right and don’t let her worry about you.Do it right now.

Now,I believe she notices my changing.I can feel her happiness and I feel the same way.She always tells me:don’t be afraid,just do your best.So I fight for every opportunity and I am happy for my every little growth.I am sure she does too.