It’s just a normal day today, I get up, take shower, make up, go to work, turn on the computer, everything is as usual, but in a vague idea,I feel something different.

Somewhere in my body is hurting during all my movements, the pain is not serious, but it exists, and numbing which distract my attention obviously. I search all my hands and find it, a slice wound happened sometime without conscience now became red and swollen because of the infection, on my fingertip of the smallest finger of my left hand. This place is ignored usually but now I find its importance during my movements, especially when typing.

Small thing but disturb me much.

Then I realize how much I have been disturbed by such small things, various information and temptation from outside, different minds and flaws I find time by time of myself.

Struggle everyday.

Everyday I need to spare some time to get alone and try to contemplate on how to get a clear mind, to know what is really you want, to annihilate the flaws by easy way instead of too exhausted, to get rid of the constrain of self-suspect about own appearances...

 And come to face to such a problem, be tougher or more fragile?