We sometimes like are in a long dark tunnel, light seems never come but left eternal solitude and helplessness. Then I know the feeling of the lyrics of an old Chinese song,

Borrow me a pair of wise eyes; help me to make clear all the puzzles.

Exactly when something happened, we can notice before we were more than ignorance and now lacked of courage.

I looked around after some work; suddenly I notice it is already in autumn now. Not from the yellow leaves or chilling, just from the atmosphere, we can tell the autumn is coming..Time flies so...

I was still immersed in grief before receiving a call from my friend. He told me that he happened to see a grieved car accident happened near Dongzhimen at 2 pm today. The woman ride a bicycle was hit by the car several meters far and died in few minutes after the accident. My friend was so shocked that became a little hysterical and just shouted incoherent that, she die, I see it I see it!

I couldn’t say anything to comfort him!

Like many people, we just think very little about death and fool ourselves like we seems could be immortal. Mostly we straightforwardly pay no attention to it and pretend it doesn’t exist at all, and then go on to worry many things around their small world.

I know what made me becoming emotional maybe was totally absurd things when we looked back in future. I couldn’t spend life worried about absurd things, putting things off and leaving important moments aside.

Please do more things that worthful, and change things that can be changed, if not let it be then. I tell myself that and get relief.

The Indians say: “today is as good a day as any other to leave this world”.

I hope that woman can get huge relief in the heaven.

May God bless all that!