All along, I was a person who loves to laugh in life. It was not contrived optimism, but I believe that everyone is not only one side. There are many unknown and hidden faces, even the most intimate ignored.
    When I am calmed down, I enjoy playing a word game with myself .Looking again at myself from a different perspective .then I am as if another person——unsecular people. Now, slowly I began to enjoy this game. Throughout the year, I like drinking tea, listening to Caijianya's songs and writing in my own words, There a kind feeling of long-lost narcissistic calm. Do not care about what others do and other people's eyes. At this point, I am only myself and only at the moment I can closer to myself and more deeply feel my presence. It is the independent existence, or isn’t the presence of attaching to someone else's identity as a daughter, granddaughter, friend.
    A source of writing inspiration is love. When I was in adolescence, I wrote poems for him whom was a boy of my unrequited love, The childish notes is kept until now. Then ，I often peeped that he plaied basketball and then quietly cheered him on.。It was more fun that the girls who liked him could become very good friends and liked a fan group. A person's "love" could be rendered very very romantic. Did not need to tell him, because It was a little girl own game. 
    When I truly understood love, I found that any text is looked pale and my heart's happiness could not be expressed in any language. Then, there was not the notice of the end 。I was be involved in the endless dark and the endless grief . With the help of friends and family，faith came back slowly to me again .Now, I also call upon the past and understand  that I should grateful. Thank the experience, I become stronger and more confident for it. All experience will be value.
     Love should be no doubtful, do not care about other people's eyes. Whether I deal with writing or future love，I will Love myself insistence and adhere to my own love.