There are so many things gathering in my mind and these make me confused and uncomfortable. I have no idea who I can speak to and how to say it.

When you were single, they hope you could find BF. When there is BF, they are not satisfied with him. They are worried about if this man who doesn’t have a stable job will give you happiness. In front of them, you are unable to persuade them to believe that you will be happy staying with that boy. What’s more, I find it difficult to make sure if he is right for me. It seems that I don’t know about him and their worries make me feel much pressure. At the same time, I feel it complex to be a person living in the world and getting along with others. The trouble is that I don’t know solve the current problem and to face it. I regard it as a slightly problem but it do make me feel pain. As a result, these thoughts influence my mood and state of living. Now I’m not in the mood to talk about the feelings with that person. I prefer to write down them than talk to him. I have to admit that my character controls my action and mind. Until now, I can touch the calm and peace in my heart. This is my way to empty my trash in my mind to release myself and clean my heart.