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What has happened to me? These days I has been in insomnia, which makes me feel horrible. That is not what I want most.
Because of the lack of room, I have to sleep with granny and my cousin in a room. It’s kind of crowded. That is not the main reason for lacking of sleep. When i just now fell asleep, granny made me awake and had a chat with me about the past. What I had to do was to listen to her and she kept telling how much she missed my dad, and began recalling the things in the past, speaking and crying. Even though I asked her to let it go, I failed to make her stop speaking. For her, what she expected was that I needn’t make a response. She was a speaker and I was her listener. I knew what I did was in vain, so I let her keep speaking out of what she wanted until she fell asleep. When she woke up again and thought of something, she woke me up and continued to say something. During that night, she fell asleep and woke up several times. Speaking out is a way for her to relieve her pressure and make her feel relaxed. The lucky thing is that the same thing didn’t happen a second night.
Actually I’m like my granny. Keeping things in my mind has a bad influenced on my sleep. The pressure of marriage and mom makes me feel uncomfortable and not know how to face the future life. In fact, I think I’m terrified of marriage life because I have no idea how to live a happy life after getting married, especially when he is in another city. I even tell them I prefer the present life and enjoy the freedom. At least, I would rather be in a relationship for a longer time. When I am asked when to get married in this year, I don’t figure out how to answer them in my heart. It seems that we have no many choices when we are no more young and will turn to be 30, in their eyes. Now what I feel is that we are playing passive roles in the moment. Under much pressure, we are forced to move towards the direction that they are looking forward to. For the time being, to go or not to go is hard for us to decide.
Because of the lack of room, I have to sleep with granny and my cousin in a room. It’s kind of crowded. That is not the main reason for lacking of sleep. When i just now fell asleep, granny made me awake and had a chat with me about the past. What I had to do was to listen to her and she kept telling how much she missed my dad, and began recalling the things in the past, speaking and crying. Even though I asked her to let it go, I failed to make her stop speaking. For her, what she expected was that I needn’t make a response. She was a speaker and I was her listener. I knew what I did was in vain, so I let her keep speaking out of what she wanted until she fell asleep. When she woke up again and thought of something, she woke me up and continued to say something. During that night, she fell asleep and woke up several times. Speaking out is a way for her to relieve her pressure and make her feel relaxed. The lucky thing is that the same thing didn’t happen a second night.
Actually I’m like my granny. Keeping things in my mind has a bad influenced on my sleep. The pressure of marriage and mom makes me feel uncomfortable and not know how to face the future life. In fact, I think I’m terrified of marriage life because I have no idea how to live a happy life after getting married, especially when he is in another city. I even tell them I prefer the present life and enjoy the freedom. At least, I would rather be in a relationship for a longer time. When I am asked when to get married in this year, I don’t figure out how to answer them in my heart. It seems that we have no many choices when we are no more young and will turn to be 30, in their eyes. Now what I feel is that we are playing passive roles in the moment. Under much pressure, we are forced to move towards the direction that they are looking forward to. For the time being, to go or not to go is hard for us to decide.
Post comment Comment (4 replies)
- Reply sunnyv
- Only those who suffer from insomnia knows what the suffering is like. A night without sleep is long and never ending, but when you can sleep, you don't know what happened in the several hours of the night and wake up feel energetic.
Yes, having someone to talk to does relieve pressures. You have done good to listen to granny because she need somebody to share her past and sufferings. Try to be tolerant towards the elder because they lived through much hardships and we are more fortunate than them.
The problem and pressures of marriage is causing so much frustrations, disappointment and anger among single girls. Years pass by and people seem to enjoy pinching others by constantly asking sharp questions like whether you have a boyfriend or when you are getting married. I wonder what is their business in this and why can't they be considerate. Who does not want to get married? Is it so easy? They just don't know how frustrating it is. There seems to be two things you can do. One is marry without worrying too much and hope for the best. Two is wait and see. Nobody is going to die without marrying.
- Reply Tange
- life is so difficult , so we need to find a partner to overcome it together ; that is so called marriage ;
do not be afraid about marrying to someone ; it should be naturely when that time is come to you .
- Reply samanthe
- I also need to suffer from insomnia due to my terrible neighbor several days ago. I just want to say this feeling is awful.
Now more and more girls need to face the stress from the marriage. I can't give you any advice as I'm lack of the related experience. please remember one point: follow your heart. My dear friend.
