“I think you don’t place me in your heart or don’t feel you love me.” He said.

At that moment I don’t know what to say and the tears can’t help running down. What he said made me feel badly hurt.

If I don’t mind, why did I have to go to see you in Beijing?

If I don’t care for you, why do I stay there for about twenty days? I think I would stay there for a couple of days

If I don’t like you, why should I wait for you until midnight every day to have a chat with you? Because of you, my sleeping schedule is different from the before.

If I am not into you, why should I chat often with you on the phone every day for a long time?

If I am not in love with you, why can you hurt my feeling?

When you make me feel unhappy, I’ll tell you why. On the contrary, you never tell me why you are angry with me. You just keep in silence.

In order not to make me mad, you say you are very discreet and often think twice before speaking. I really can’t stand that and I’m not your boss. That means you are always a little nervous while talking.

I once said you should be yourself in front of me and so should I . It’s not the end of the world when I’m not happy, right? when the girl is unhappy, your task is to cheer her up. It’s so easy to understand and why can’t you get it. Besides, you used to be in love with other girls.

Now my tears no longer appear and I’m in peace.

But I don’t know how to deal with and face you.

Before hanging off, you said this was not my fault and yours and what you said was nonsense and asked me not to take it into my heart.

After speaking out of it, how can I think of it nothing and ignore it?

If you don’t fall in love with me, you can say that frankly. And I’m unwilling to be with the one who isn’t into me. If you are not the right one, I’ll let you go.

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Can I call him now to talk about what I’m suffering now?

No, I can’t. At this moment, he is working and I don’t want to make his attention distract from the work.

But I really make her know how I’m feeling and what he is thinking.

Maybe I need to keep myself calm and in this way we can have a good and valuable conversation. That matters.

What I can do is to wait for him to be off works, besides I also need time to adjust myself and don’t want to cry whiling talking.

In the evening, I received his message and I didn’t know what to do. So I made no reply to him.

By the time I was ready to talk with him, he was about to go to sleep because he would get up early the next day.

So let it be.