I don’t know how to describe this.we met each other in winter holiday of 2007 in my hometown and we got along with 4 happy days, just like very familiar to each other and had endless words to talk about. I don’t think I would fall in love him until he left. In fact still now I don’t know whether it is love or not, I just know that I always miss him at times. I want to tell him my feeling happy or sorrow all the time after I came back to school even though I knew he had a girlfriend, we test some messages just like friends at times. But I hadn’t told him any of my feelings. This just lasted about half a year.I thought we can meet each other in summer holiday if he didn’t change jobs. But the day I was in bus to go home in summer holiday I received a message from him.He told me he will go to Beijing the next day. I was so shocked and didn’t know how to reply his message, so I said when was the train and maybe I could see him off as a friend because that day I happened to in Wuhan. But he didn’t reply me. I felt so disappointed in the next days. One day I received a message from him again about he changed his phone number. After that we got in touched with each other for a long time .Each time it always was me who test messages to him at first. Sometimes he replied me but sometimes he didn’t. So when he didn’t reply me I felt very upset. And I seldom test messages to him gradually even though I missed him very much and I have so many words wanted to tell him. On each festival he would test messages to me about greetings, from his messages I knew that he and his girlfriend were broke –up, at that time words were hard to express my feeling. I don’t think we will have a result even though I won’t let him know my feelings to him. When I didn’t miss him I felt very good, but when I missed him I became very sad and loney, I was confused by this for a long time. In order to not addict to these additions, I decided delete his QQ, phone number and e-mail, all his information i deleted, but his phone number I am still remembering. Sometimes I would miss him, but just in my heart, none of his business.Last June I got a strange call, it was from him which since we haven’t got in touch with each other about half a year, when I heard his voice I was so excited, but we just talked about 3 minutes then he said he had to do something and we could get in touch later. In these 3 minutes he asked me about my school life and when I would graduate. I was very excited and it was long time before I calmed down.I full of curiousity why he would give me that call after half a year. On that evening I test message to him asked why, but he didn’t reply me. The following 3 days I continued test messages to him, he didn’t give any reply. I doubt that he really gave me that call, but I found the phone record in my celephone, I really didn’t know what happened and why he didn’t reply me. So I test the last message to him said if we were friends please reply me, if not, I knew what’s his answer and I wouldn’t disturb him,at last I got no reply. Then I deleted his phone number again. During the next year we didn’t contact again, and I thought my feelings to him gradually fade, but last week he add my QQ, when I saw his name and QQ number I felt very excited, nervors,complicated or something others.I didn’t know whether I should agree, but at last I agreed. I said hello to him just like strangers. About some minutes later he replied, ask me whethere I knew who he was. Then just greetings and he told me he was working in Wuhan now, I really had a lot of questions to ask him, but I asked nothing, maybe it needn’t absolutely. when I missed him I thought what would happen if we could meet by across, maybe I would told him my feelings to him then say goodbye to each other and disappeared in the crowd, it was beyond my imagination that we were just near the city and we could contact after a year , in the next days when I was online, he was offline or maybe just set invisible. So I haven’t met him on internet since he added me. I knew he would disappeared again in my world since we contacted for a long time, like this time,we didn’t get in touch with ahout a year, but just greetings he won’t online.In fact we missed meet to each other 3 times. The first time was the day I went school on Jan.2008, he just went my hometown for business, but I had to go to school.The second time was in May 2008, he was in my hometown too, he asked me if I went home on Labor’s day, but I went home on Tumb’s day, I had no reason to go to home again, The third time was he went to Beijing. This time I won’t delete his QQ,but I don’t know how long it will last,Still now I don’t understand why he would contact me about a year later, may I think that he worried that I will forget him or he was lonely?no answers.