QingMing festival this year, I rarely take a holiday to grave with my family.. After gone a long mountain road,we finally get to our grandfathers’ cemetery . watching a seat tombstone, thought that once those  familiar faces now are just memories of the screen,  I can not help but a myriad of thoughts.
Life is short, youth is more short-term,so why not live for myself? Why am I  care about other people's vision and gossip and even malicious slander? Always asking myself whether it is the right choice? Whether it is worthwhile to pay everying for him? The answers  always mixture with negative meanings.i am more and more believe an old saying that love is easy while to get along with is hard.There’s  no lack of arguments and  cold wars  between us, and sometimes may suspect the real degree of feelings?Once I was attracted by his maturity ,but now it hurts me deeply for what is share of mature is  impeccable  lies! I began to hesitate, want to escape, why not turn back  before hitting  the south mountain.I know I have a strong character, imagine the experience of betrayal,how would feel and what would you do ?I just want to protect myself with the hedgehog’s  strong.

 I feel confused very often, ask myself what is the most wanted, most wanted to pursue, lifestyle, emotion, work experience?  I have had my own ideas to life.. Suppose we do together later, I do not want my life just to take you as the center, at home playing the role of full-time wives and housewives. Cooking occasionally may be a fresh esperience, but if every day i do the same, I must go crazy. I hope that we both have saperate work and personal space .