I must confess I feel a little bit hurt when mom said that.

It makes me again to think of the meaning of my life in the world.

What on earth a person lives in the world for?

For parents? For a better day? For suffering? For wealth? For other people? Or for nothing?

Meaningless!

I am always pursueing the freedom that I can live as I like.

Unfortunately everything is not on the way.

 

Some times before I have been considering leaving forever.

But I hesitated.

It is mom's word that helps me recover from hesitation.

I must make up my mind to make a choice.

I choose to live for myself, not for mom, not for the love in blood, not for anyone else.

Nothing gonna stop my desire for free life style.

 

Why should I be born?

Why should I do as they say?

Why should follow the routine?

Why should I care anybody else says?

Can't I just be myself?

Can't I just follow my heart?

Can't I just do a little others didn't do?

Because we are ordinary people?

Because we were give life by others?

If so, I hope I've never had been born.

 

As I said today to a new friend, I don't wanna live long, maybe forty or fifty years, is enough.

I can afford myself.

I can take care of myself and I am doing well now.

Why must I find a stranger to live with during the rest of life?

Why must I do because others do so?

That' not me.

 

Siege.

A good novel.

People rush out, at the same time, rush in.

But it's they not I.

 

I am waiting for someone, who left three months ago.

I am insisting on our love not being fade as time goes by.

Even it's not the reason I refuse to go as others do, I still refuse to accept the destiny.

I haven't step out to see the open world even a glance.

I cannot stand being normal.

I cannot stand being restrained by anybody.

Nobody should do so.

It's not the task I must achieve!

 

Go ahead, Katty.