I introduced my friend to write sth in here to improve english（this blog..）several days ago.  She took several minutes to looked around at it,said: it's simple words. it's useless for me.. did u know i always  extend some net like this..  ya. i said: do more action better  than speaking... :) I wanna smile....

 

I wasn't sleep good last night. I was thinking somebody,and think of the love meaning. thinking of two persons' emotion.In my life, several person said to me: I love u.. Always  when i hear it, I feel lost... strange feeling..and never put it into my heart. Bcz I have no love's feeling for them..just hide it. anf refuse it.   Three year, no,it's pased four year now when i graduated from high school..  I am growing up day by day. but i till like him. I can't find any reasons for it, hope to stop these feeling.. I feel that will hurt me.. wanna stop the thinking..Why is happed in my life？expecial for sth like this.. sometimes,really don't know how to say it. Feel life hardly to go..  it's an awesome thing for me.  God, are u live in common person's life? do u always help the common person?  I sware, i will try to believe that there is a god live tegother with us..  :) I wanna smile..... 

 

... A lot of things sit or stand in my desk.. Never talk to me, and never move if no my order. They are very quietly. They always follow me and do everything for me. do their best  for me until nothing keep in them.  I wanna ask: Can i say that all of this are their whole life. The god decide it... :) I wanna smile.....

 

Time passed, left the good or bad memery for all people.  Just say that's nothing for me, u know,It's life..  u know, Life always like this. so just have happy feeling for everyday.  Could u tell me is that really nothing for u?  I ever heared one person who got a serious ill so that she cann't have a baby（she will  has 50% possible chance to die if she has a baby,but she wannna,she need to persuade her mother to agree with her） said: I'd rather has 30 minutes' happy for had a baby than have a common life which depend on take medecine to keep..   Finally, Her dream is come true. she belong to a health and cute baby... a boy.. but when cute bb has 2 year old ago, the beautiful mother is death.

 

Ah,I just do my best to let my dream come true.. Do my best...  :) smiling.........