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This is a girl's story, maybe you cold not understand.
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I am a girl, very quiet since I was a baby.
At that time, many people said to my mother:
Don'worry, she will be talkative when she grow up.
And I grow up now, but quiet as before.
In the outgoing world,
I was hurt.
But I do not regard myself as a lower person.
Why the world with divesity of cultuarl does not allow this kind of "quite" to exist?
I believe in myself for many years,
"Be yourself !" A strong voice, from my deep heart,
Because, "quiet" unables you to thinking,
"quiet" makes you a different person from the majority,
"quiet" gives you much time to relax your spirit,
"quiet"allows you to reading deeply of a book.....
Why I must change the inner quality of myself to be another person?
In order to, survive this world?
I remember a film The Lengend of 1900,
The pianist, in order to continue to make "quiet"music from god,
He choose death, another way to be eternal.
So what's wrong with the word "quiet"?
However, as time passing by,
My heart is difficult to stay in peace.
Feeling lonely, cold and sad.
Eager to communicate with others,
but found no person.
Lying on the bed,
I felt my flood flowing,
with sorrows.
The real world,
seems so close to me,
but actually so far.
A thick glass,
separate me from the real world.
Looking around me,
Every person,
seems all so happy together.......
Only me,
Only time,
Only wind,
Only rain....
I don't know why.
What's wrong with myself ?
What's wrong with "quiet"?
Since graduation,
In the huge city,
only me,
no boy friend, no girl friend,
few old friends.
Even a few good friends during college time,
seems don't like to communicate with me now.
I am a girl,
lack of relationship.
There are only two person in the world,
who care about me.
They are my parents.
I am living only for them.
Am I wrong?
Am I an unnnecessary person in the world?
Is it a mistake to bring me to the world?
In the dark night,
listening to the songs of "Enya",
songs from heaven,
from church,
from the whole sky......
My heart got peace for a while.
But,
After the nights,
Waking up in the morning,
how will I face,
the real world?
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Post comment Comment (5 replies)
- Reply betty396
- Yeah, I have to tell u the truth. It is hard to keep silent in this maybe a little bit “clamor” world. If u do this, maybe you will be out of others' eyesight little by little. Remember we live in a society, no matter you like or dislike this situation, you must try to fit into this community.So I suggest you shall try to communicate with others, let others share your ideas, then you will not be lonely. I know it is difficult for you to change from what you have been for many years. However, you have to try, you have to ajust to the environment or you will never feel peace in mind and full in heart.
- Reply Vanasa55
- betty396: Yeah, I have to tell u the truth. It is hard to keep silent in this maybe a little bit “clamor” world. If u do this, maybe you will be out of othersThank you.
Eager to communicate with others, but found no person.
It not depends on if I am willing to communicate, it depends on the ability. That is what I am worrying about.
- Reply warmjaney
- We are in the same mood; Graduated from college for over half one year, I got used to keeping silence once meeting unhappiness. At times, I feel lonely and silly by myself. And what's more I would like to give it up. But it's said that if we couldn't change it, we could change ourselves; we couldn't change the environment, but we should adjust ourselves into it. So struggle, come on, dear friend. Victory is waiting for you!
- Reply betty396
- Vanasa55: Thank you.Yeah, once I have this problem, too. I didn't know how to communicate with others, my teacher gave me a suggestion. Try to talk with others , if you have a chance, talk. At first, maybe you didn't know what to talk, however, after you speak a lot of things or others do so, you will find out that you may have something in common, then concentrate on this part, then you can share your ideas with others on this . After more communication, you will probably be able to enter into the further topic.
Eager to communicate with others, but found no person.
It not depends on if I am willing to communicate, it depends on the ability. That is
This is just one advice.
Of course, there are many communication skills, such as how to organize your language, how to express your ideas in an appropriate way......
