These days,  I feld very puzzled and confused about my life, my future and myself. So, today I write this blog to illustrate my passed days.

 

I'm a graduate student in Beijing with a very cold major. A month ago, my brother asked me what I want to do in the future and what is your ideas or plan on that. All of a sudden, I was shocked by that and had nothing to say, because I really do not want what is actually suitable for me. I indeed want to have a pracctice in the society.When I telled it  to my friend and sought some adviced from him, he told me that what you do is not that important, for you, the first step to come into the real work circumstance means more. Yes, I seldome did practices in the past, dorminatory and labs are my destination. It seems that I was unfamiliar with the outside world.Talking to my labs, I have to say that my tutors has arranged too many test for us, I was really upset on that. somethings I felt that I was just a test machine,without thinking and some of them, to me, have little values on my improvement.But I don't dare to tell him for his anger or something unhappy. The contradict really exists, what should I do ?

 

The contadict in my heart compels my staying at school all day long, which make me very anxious and hesitant. This morning, my girl friend told me that I was like a *****, complaint always and stig. Her thougts is what I think on myself, I feel I was psychological sick. Think too much frequently and do not want to achieve my plans and can not concentrate myself on study, documets, or others. I have doubted myslf if I can do well in the future if this trend goes on.

 

Friends, whether you have such days, please give me some tips.