recently , i find that evertyhing is against me and i feel  everyone is unfriendly  to  me  .however ,the truth is everyone is normal and treats me friendly as what they did before ,   i know the reason: there is something wrong with me .

   our school  has a regulation the postgraduate can garduate in advance if u have already found a decent job for u ,well ,u can leave scool and have nothing to do with the school.

     this year, to my surprise ,theere are 3 classmates among our 15 students altogether in our major ,besides there job are also good ,one get the admission into the diplomatic department and the other goes to the patty school as a teacher in the CHONGWEN district in the east part of beijing .   the another also have  a promising future.   

    what i still wana to say is the 3 classmates are all boys ,however there are 5 boys in our class ,  and i am one of the 2 students who still need to stay in the school for 12 months , oh god jesus ,i really don't wana to study any more ,i am tired of to be a student ,i just wana to get a  offer and attemp  a  different life .

   in fact ,i know  it is not advisable to have this thought , i must perish the thought and need to calm down ,

    what i need to do  now is calm down and evaluate myself calmly ,    i   hope i will have a sytematically planning and procee it step by  step   .   we need to palan our  career and make it come ttrue with our own hand ,   oh yes ,we coould get it ,  ok?yes .com'n.

   really ,i need to adjust my own mind ,and let me get rid of the unnormal mood ,tomorrow is a another fresh day ,let's embrace it with our sincerity ,  com'on.   we will get it .