For the first time on my way alone to the library,I listened

carefully to the familiar-strange campus whom I've known for 3

years.Freezing drizzle kept hitting my violet umbrella

rhythmically;chilly gusts of wind blew constantly at my icy

and emotionless face;dispersed birds were screaming through the

woods and winging away over my head.Miles away on the lawn,a

lonely bike was taking shelter from an elm tree,trembling and

quivering hopelessly.The whole campus was so empty that I

could see no life but the grassy football field,the mossy

pavement and aged lamp poles in the corner.

Quiet,calm and peaceful,my dead heart aches silently.

Exhausted,drained and weary,I am so fed up with this earthly game

which is by no means easy to play.

It hurts to lose,truly and bloody right.

The nature's healing power's not gonna work well on me.

What am I expecting and awaiting?