The day spent as usual, nothing happened. As I guessed earlier, he blew me off another time. He asked me to a lunch a few days ago,but not calling me ever since. I don't know what is going on between us. I hate wondering what is his thought over and over. I gave him chances, I did. And now I am getting tired. I like me being sensitive and thoughtful, but not emotional. I find out things just won't work out between us. He and me are different.

So, boy stuff is done. I think I would love to turn to the work part. I am a good intern, I can be better. But I think it better to keep what you got. Let the people gradually find out your ability, they will be always surprised. If you show off too early, you will become a goal that everyone wanna devise from.

 

 

I actually have many things fill in my head, maybe too many, that every time I want to write something about them, I don't know where to start. Life is tough, people is cold, I am lonly. You will tell me let it be, I will become cynical everntally. I think I am just a pethatic idiot.