the hidden secret, maybe my coward, or another word mature make me conveal it. What I can promise is I will come out, I just hope that day comes soon. So before the accomplishment, i need my endavourment and some bit luck. So I remind myself to strict the plan by writing this blog and keep promising, even though the weak of hope. I will be kind and sincere in return to the "kind people in good luck".
Frankly, i am frustrated, cause he rejected me, even though i am not actually falling in love with him. Maybe in the dark side of myself, he is top. Or he shows how quickly i am not the girl he wants.I hope one day i will be on top and find my right that time he loves me.
Hope is frail, feeable, but sometime is the anchor for the future. What i can do is to be the best of myself and pray.