Actually, i am not explosive tempered person, i tolerate the difference between you and me.

    But why i transgressed this time cau we two agreed on items, the man promised to manage to do it with certainty, then no reply. And due to the time i called him, he gave me some " whitewashed objective"reasons, the problem lays why not impart me the first time, and this is not the first time he made such a mistake which sucessfully exploded my temper. In fact, i would have blocked his back as easily as blowing off dust, but i gave him my kindness to let it be. But this time i decided to modulate the deviated track back.

    The worst is the stormy impulse triggered my newly recovered bowel motions into some part of abnormal--i fairly felt the twisting part of my bowel. You were not me, you would never know how dreadful that mind throught my thought which tightly encircled myself into darkness after hanging off the phone. Maybe you will think i am too sensitive, but i have enought reason to being this.

    I told myself to calm down and relax. It will be find and rita, you just need more time.

    In reality, I try to be confident to definite myself as a healthy girl which actually is not the true at the bottom of my heart. Would a healthy girl gauge what kind of food she are supposed to not to eat or calauate how volume of coffee she could drink a day or a week? That is the truth i have to face, i have to consolidate my digestion system stey by stey, day by day not to beyond its content till one day it fully strong again.

    Several years after or no illness long time prove slightly that i am well and i hope one day i could abandon myself into food options.

    Tomorrow morning, i will be fine again.