My mind is aching for something that I can put it here. Something that can actually prove I am serious about the day, the job, the life.

It is not a job that I have to finish before I can leave this office, it is just something that I think the ideal "I "would do. I do not know if I am the only one who think this way.

So what should I say to fill the blank so next time I click open my space and say: wow, did you really write this?

 

The day began with a bad dream, I could not bring myself to say it here, so bad that I can still feel the terror, the pain, the possibility that I may never see her again. It is so bad that I can not tell anyone because they say if you have a bad dream and you tell someone, it will come true. I woud give anything to stop it, so I shut my mouth, washed my hair and went to work in my high heeled shoes, I find I am quite good with it now.

As usual, I am the eaerliest one. I open the door, started the computer and sat down to work,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Have to go now. Radiation, numb ass, and pain in the back.....................