It's late at night, but I am not prone to go to bed cause I don't think I can fall asleep easily tonight.

 

I was humiliated by a guy who always tought he treated me right. And we share same friends back at the university. I am gonna prove myself, I said a million times to myself. But it doesn't woooork! I am still lazy every single day, with nothing done a whole week. After graduation, I was lost. Mr. Sunshine is eating shit and dying, with poor English skills, love to someone, and full of rage...

 

I am not in need of success as much as confidence. I am at a loss. Where's my lost confidence, self-esteem and glory? Where?  I am not in charge of anything. People treat me cruelly and mercilessly, with too much contempt on their faces.

 

I wanna fight, with my head bleeding and my arms broken, but with fearless heart and brain.

 

Actually, I am a litte bit drunk... I am a swine, a jerk...