This week is fine at least to me until Friday. Things changed when she, well I don’t even know her name, talked to me. Actually I was the one started the conversation. She said something, something that even not new. She told me to think twice and think it through before making the final decision. But can I actually make the decision or any of it?

      As usual, I persuade myself not to be affected by her, or fairly to say, the doubt that already existed on my mind for a long time. I make myself believe that my friends are right, believe that I will make a difference, believe that things will work out with time passing. I am not going to let this lady talk to wipe out my passion about my future. I mean who could be sure of the things in the future. Nobody can. They are just too weak to notice or to stop it.

      Well I admit. I couldn't have been more wrong. The things she mentioned, I thought that I could nod my way through it, pretend like it would all be ok. But she was right, things were still there, unchanged, staying with me. I can't just escape them, as much as I want to. But what else could I do? This is the world I live in. No magic, no mysticism, no immortality.

      The most fearful thing in the life is the darkness deep in your heart. But soul told us that you shall have courage as long as the heartbeats. All you can do is be ready for the good. So when it comes, you invite it in, because you need it. I need it.