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it seems as if it is better to let impossiblility off and set impossible love free and to fulfil what difficulities and impossiblity .
That's nice and free to tell you my mind those days
That's nice and free to tell you my mind those days
Strength:
1) You like me and I like you , you told me you want to come to meet me and marry me , which make me feel happy and blessed because i trust you and am in love .
2) You call me daily and chat with me on line, which make me feel that you care abt me and miss me and I love you more than before and trust you more
3) Your spare you time after work to chat with me late into night which touch me because you can squeeze the sleepy eyes to talk with y ou even you feel tired and sleepy and troublesome and I do like to talk with u even i feel boring and dull at that time. I don't want to disturb you and waste ur precious time on it .
4)Do you know propably in ur eyes my deeds look like a kids and you film like a father to show me all i cannot understand and to explain it to me in details and to accompany it with me, and i asked u to have ur hair cut and you just cut it funny and i showed you the bamboo plants and you like and to buy one for uself at that time,even though i don't know whether it is all true from your likeness and heart at the same time i can feel you lovely and sincerity so that i like you more ............
5)you shared with me about your previous divorced marriage and your present life and your routine and your shedule and your dishes and your family and your childhood days and your thoughts, well, which make me feel that you are believealbe and trustful even you are a divorced man and i do want to get rid of such shortcomings even i do bear some
doubts on it . In fact, i wont mind it slowly by slowly and little by little. But you mind it and you feel that i mind it . As before i told my parents on your divorced marriage and they regard you as irresponsible man and have bad impression on you ,but later on when they saw us chatting on line and saw your face on cam and they have little care on ur background naturally , but you don;t know, perhaps it was you who never know and never feel it . and my cousins coming to my home to see my brother and saw us chatting on cam and they felt funny to see me to teach you our language and they just joked with u and are impurposed to u . i wonder at that time whether it caused you feel uncomfortable or uneasy or untrustful
6)As i told to you that i mentioned our matter to my parents and they just name me as a silly and stupid and follish gal to talk that nonsense to them under the condition of no bf and of no meeting you and of your no arrival at china . yes, indeed, at that time i did feel i am the great fool when speaking to them because i do have doubts and suspects on ur promise. in reviewing the history, the time proved that i am just the super fool and peanut now by saying sth unreasonable and unnational in advance .
7) When i told our matter to another strange people on line, you got angry with me for a week and you came back to me but at that time our passion was fading ................to tell the turth , that person on line i never meet and something he told to me is nonsense and bullshit but not all like that because i did know sth in such a world will happen all the time and is exitent all around only we cannot feel it . And i quite know what kind of person they are and what they told to me i won't care abt because i have a belief and principle in believeing in sb who worth me trusting and relying on . I copied our message to him just wanted to irritate him and want to show you his message just wanted to see what ur refection towards his words which drvied you mad and angry and to make you silent and part with me at that time. It looks as if i played a big deal with you by doing that to you . And I should notice that what results i have got and that you are also a man who are ealisy to lose temper and have short temper and suspects . All bined together make us a common but similar person in temper and in mind.All wil occur just because we are strange on line and never see in reality or what most important is that we are not to believe each other in heart or what?
8) when you promised me to come to see me earlier than our expected , i did feel very joyful and happy to meet you and to be with you finally if it is true to be realized . because i can be with my lover and to live with my lover since then on . Lol..how silly of mind who will have ? When after some times, considering the visa time, you took a rain check to come ,and i did feel upset but i remained expect you will come one day to me . I still wish that day comes to us ........haha.................
Weakenss :
1)When you told our matter to your brothers and family memebers and they objected you and disagreed on our marriage because they dislike chinese people, which drive me mad at you and made me feel upset and desperate in our love . And when you noticed my anger and you dislike me and won't care abt but to the contrary just retorted upon me that yangyanxia has short temper and we cannot live together. It shows that you have suspects and disagreement and dissatisfaction with my such reflection and what's worse is that it leaked out your cunny face even i cannot see you right there which made me feel that you are trapping me and tricking me and playing with me .
I have no hope to you such act to me. i cannot understand you why and what for whether my such silly face and angry face can satisfy your tricky mind and my sad and sorrow emotion can make you reach a top of happiness and satisfaction ?In fact, all displayed that you are not serious with it and how dare you ask me to be serious with it ?
From the begin to the end, if your family dislike me and disagree with ur decision , you had better not make any excuse to tell me that i decided to come to u and marry you after several months . And i do hope you don't give any fancy dream and hope to me such a silly gal because i will believe you i don't know why i never believe person as you did.
But at the end, all fake and all fade and all forget and let all forgive it . Even if my parents dislike me marry you a divorced man and won't permit to do that . and time will prove that we are right for it if we are really to love each other and to marry each other once decision . Itis a pity that you retreat from me and you give in and give up and you are defeated by them just because you are limited by your brother and your living and your live is controlled by your family members . I do respect that you will consult yo ur brothers for advices and i do respect that you are a person who love ur family .
It's unbelievalbe that you don't have y our own choice to select what you really want and what y ou really have . but to the contrary your life is arranged and controlled by sb . just because your family discriminated against all the chinese people and consider all the chinese people are look the same and behave the same and in the same taste enjoying the same purpose and poor habits ,don't you ? what i told is true or false in y our mind or what? However i am sorry to tell you not all the people share the same habits and value in mind and in morality and in customs and share the same world opinion or same characters all over the world .
I don't think all the people in the world are bad or imoral or irresponsible or unbelievable or untrustful and dishonest and fake . Yes, i still believe that true loves will exist in true people not only for materialism or money worshipper . Just because someone chinese people are not good in behavior but i never agree with ur brothers mind because he has some discrimination agaist us . just for it you avoid me and want to escape from me and want to run away from me and repel me ?Never mind na for now, we have nothing to do with each other na.
unrealist i should be ...worth it ...deserve it......lol..........i am a brave woman for i can take all upon me and i will be responsible for it and i will take the consequences and the risk at an time . You must know it is miserable of people to beg love from another or from the world who dislike him or her so that we had better not be that one who begs love from others or the world hate u or dislike u . And then we can devote our love to the world and the needed not the unneeded .
What lessons i can get from the society and people are that who is worth trusting and believeing in the world perhaps onl y myself in itself.
What i mentioned before to you that i am not a good cooker and not a housewife and not a good wife in your eyes because i can cook bad food and i am neak freak and i want all be arranged by my own . And if your brothers choice is good for you and your choice not for me is right and you are so obedient and nice people to ur family that you should have a good family before but not for now.
Sorry to tell you that i cannot observe and witness any blame or shame from you and i cannot feel your sadness or sincerity to it . I dislike you hide your true things to me but just to play at me.I feel uncomfortable and uneasy and upset and unhappy when you repelled that you are busy with other women . In fact, till now ,just after several months , you should have found you a new gf, and y ou should have forgot me ,and should not come back to me . aNd i am trying to forget all our things from that day just because we postponed for a long time and you never contacted me. so what for now? what will be even you come to me ? broken mirror will be reunited after hurts ? perhas it is hard ,because you cannot make y our right choice na, if that so, you just follow ur brothers . They will seek sb right and suitable for u . And i will find a better one.
Its hard for us to believe net love ......net people are hard to believe in ................
To cut a long story short now, all is clear and all is history ,tomorrow will be find and must be bright ....gud luck
take care
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To: ***************
Subject: RE: pls call free hot line
Date: Sat, 2 Oct 2010 14:07:43 +0800
.ExternalClass .ecxhmmessage P {padding:0px;} .ExternalClass body.ecxhmmessage {font-size:10pt;font-family:Tahoma;} I don't know why you are coming back to find me ,for what? for ur sick purpose? are u not reaching to ur aim? you get it annyway because i was hurt by someone.
i don't know why you feel sorry for trapping me if ur not so why for sorry ?
i have nothing to say anthing abt it because i was trying your sincerity and your promise to me ? i only want to see the result and the end of how it running if that so?
what i want to tell is that that person i told our matter to is not my friends and i dislike him i told u years agon thousands of times and he is only that fake people on line and i told him our matter i just want to tell him and to show him there is nice person in such world but not him and i just telling him that he is nice and honest person. because i know what they want to tell me and what they want to show me after i spoke your priveate matter to them just for the resaon that they don;t know you and they thought you as untrust and bad person even in my eyes before i knew him .
What you told is right i just said to u that i dislike divorced person because they are not responsible for their life and marriage and family but i even informed you that but not all the divorced people are bad or irrepsonisble and untrust and playful and dishonest and unsincere and ill or for what .............................however no matter how i explained to u just nonsense to you , what i can chat with you , what i should persiist in ,for what,nothing, because we have no comment sense even not trust no belief between us based on the principle of untrust ,yet i still believe that you are true to me if not you won't tell me that more and even showed me that more, but at the end of the story ,you retreated from us ........you are defeated ................
i dont who is the pessimistic one and suspecious one, it seems that i am doubtful and suspected one ,yes , i do, because i have no idea whether what you told to me is true or not, and i don't know why for it , just because you like to kid me , i wonder why have to joke or kid for this , i dsiike such jokes or kids,because it sound that you are playing with me ,if al play, i won;t need to devote my true love to it , because i must be hurt if i devote to it , i am afraid of being hurt all thet ime, but at last the fact shows that everytime i must be the one who are hurt and joked and trapped i don;t know for what, because i care it and i am true and sincere to it ,but to the contrary , you are not, so you cannot feel pain or hurt and sick in love. but i will, because i am that silly one, i wont like to joke marriage because nothing to refund or gain from it but just sadness or sorrows , everyone wants true love and real marriage and true care,but who will in reality,only the real one who care, in fact , \we are not the understandable to it ....
Date: Sat, 2 Oct 2010 14:07:43 +0800
.ExternalClass .ecxhmmessage P {padding:0px;} .ExternalClass body.ecxhmmessage {font-size:10pt;font-family:Tahoma;} I don't know why you are coming back to find me ,for what? for ur sick purpose? are u not reaching to ur aim? you get it annyway because i was hurt by someone.
i don't know why you feel sorry for trapping me if ur not so why for sorry ?
i have nothing to say anthing abt it because i was trying your sincerity and your promise to me ? i only want to see the result and the end of how it running if that so?
what i want to tell is that that person i told our matter to is not my friends and i dislike him i told u years agon thousands of times and he is only that fake people on line and i told him our matter i just want to tell him and to show him there is nice person in such world but not him and i just telling him that he is nice and honest person. because i know what they want to tell me and what they want to show me after i spoke your priveate matter to them just for the resaon that they don;t know you and they thought you as untrust and bad person even in my eyes before i knew him .
What you told is right i just said to u that i dislike divorced person because they are not responsible for their life and marriage and family but i even informed you that but not all the divorced people are bad or irrepsonisble and untrust and playful and dishonest and unsincere and ill or for what .............................however no matter how i explained to u just nonsense to you , what i can chat with you , what i should persiist in ,for what,nothing, because we have no comment sense even not trust no belief between us based on the principle of untrust ,yet i still believe that you are true to me if not you won't tell me that more and even showed me that more, but at the end of the story ,you retreated from us ........you are defeated ................
i dont who is the pessimistic one and suspecious one, it seems that i am doubtful and suspected one ,yes , i do, because i have no idea whether what you told to me is true or not, and i don't know why for it , just because you like to kid me , i wonder why have to joke or kid for this , i dsiike such jokes or kids,because it sound that you are playing with me ,if al play, i won;t need to devote my true love to it , because i must be hurt if i devote to it , i am afraid of being hurt all thet ime, but at last the fact shows that everytime i must be the one who are hurt and joked and trapped i don;t know for what, because i care it and i am true and sincere to it ,but to the contrary , you are not, so you cannot feel pain or hurt and sick in love. but i will, because i am that silly one, i wont like to joke marriage because nothing to refund or gain from it but just sadness or sorrows , everyone wants true love and real marriage and true care,but who will in reality,only the real one who care, in fact , \we are not the understandable to it ....
Date: Thu, 30 Sep 2010 21:00:12 -0700
From: ---------
Subject: RE: pls call free hot line
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I did not disliked you. You disliked me because I am a divorced man.
I trusted you. I send you my pictures, and told you all about my personal life, which I did not tell anyone.
I trusted you, thats why I talked to you face to face on skype.
It is not over from myside. I still like you. But don't like you to discuss our relationship to other people. People will never give you right suggestion.
If you feel I traped you, then I am sorry.
I will appreciate If you tell me what wrong I did with you,and how I traped you for what, which I should not do. I can take all the blame, if you explain me my fault
I remember , we were arguing on something. which got worse and we stop talking.
Other than that , If I hurt your feeling , I am really sorry.
Arvind Sharma --- On Thu, 9/30/10, yanxia yang <q> wrote:
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