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It's been almost 2 years since my last coming here to the DioEnglish. So many things have changed, life keeps going forward, no matter whether the direction is right or not. Last May, I resigned from my first job which I took since graduation from the university. Then I came back home and determined never returned to Shanghai again, which was my dreaming city since I was a little child, but turned out it was just the same as the other cities, whether you could be happy or not totally depend on yourself, had nothing to do with in which city you stay. Then I went to the driving school whose system I had registered into at the beginning of 2012,but because of my tardiness, I never went there for the classes or practice. After a long learning process because of the low efficiency and the big crowd of the learners, finally I got my driving license. I planned to go out for work after it, but something happened, I got an order from Germany for some products. It inspired my intention to establish my own career. I started to try my best to contact the foreigners I knew to win business opportunities. I sent like, thousands of emails out to introduce the product and the advantages of mine. I got some responses, no other than invited me to register into their supplier system but which needs all the legal documents of my company which I didn't have because of my concern of the upcoming costs if I finished the whole company registration process. So I never made it. I supposed if there was any customer who had interest in my product, I would finish my company registration immediately because there was hope. But it never came true, except the few invitation, my emails were like rocks sinking into the sea, never came back. I think maybe because I'm too coward to have even one step forward. I worried too much but acted too little. Around the spring festival, I reconsidered to go out to work again, I sent a lot of CVs out through Zhilian and 51job, but damn these websites, there was no HR contacting me but some HR agents who asked a lot of money for service. It was such a depressed srping festival. I felt no happiness. I wanted to go to Shanghai again, but as soon as I thought everything should be started from zero, I needed to move all my stuff there and rent a house, my passion fade away immediately. I don't want to get used to a brand new living environment again. But staying here in my hometown, I always think I would be wasting my talent here and end up nobody. All by coincident, I noticed a recruitment information from the internet that a local chemical company is in need of an international sales director. I thought it worthed a shot, so I called their boss and talked with him. I seemed to me from that call that the boss didn't need such a role in his company so urgent, so I didn't give it a second thought and contiunced my life without any change. Then one day I recieved a call from the boss, he asked me to go to his office to have some detail talks. I went there, and the talk was going on very well. But I didn't talk about the job, I talked more about the products and the company management. At last, I got some documents from the boss and went back. I told him I had some resources which might help to promoting the products in European market. Actually deep in my mind, I thought maybe it was a new chance for me to run this product by myself. So I contacted my aquintances again, but just as usual, nothing good happened. So I thought it's done. I sent a report to that boss, explained the market situation with no expectation of response. Then I continued sending CVs out. One day, when I was in the mood the Romantic TV series which was acted by Yan Chengxu because I went through the Meteor Garden again, and found that I loved him so crazily, I got a phone call from a german guy who turned out to be a HR of a german company. I was in such a mess in the TV, I didn't know what I said to him. He asked me whether I could speck German, I told him I was in learning but couldn't speak yet. I don't know whether he understood me or not, he tried to talk to me in German, so I replied in German, but just 1 sentence, I was choked, I had no even 1 German word in my mind. So you can see how the result was. I failed the telephone interview. It was such a pity, I believe it was my desired position. But that's it, it's done. On 2nd, May, one of besties got married, I went to her hometown in the countryside, it was so beautiful there with a lake in the front of the house and some tall trees and a big yard in the middle of housing area. While the breeze passing by, you can see the lake dancing and hear the trees singing. How good days! I stayed there 3 days, it went so fast, I didn't even realise how the details I got when I stayed there. Last week, the boss from the chemical company called me again. He said he wanted the international business be developed ASAP, he wanted me to be there to talk more about the jobs. While I haven't got any interview chances yet, I agreed. The boss wanted me to go to work for him very much but he worried that I might leave someday for sure. Yes, I have to say he is right. If I get any better chance, I'll go immediately with no even second thought. I told him my requirements, he thought it was too high, so the bargaining started. Finally, we came to the final conclusion. I will start to work next Monday. The passing year for me was really hard and tough, I experienced so much. Before I resigned, I lost my beloved Grandma. There was so many regrets, but there is no cure to get back to the old times. What I can do is just smile and say goodbye to the past, not only the last year but all those years I have been through. It brought me so many happiness and so much sorrow at the same time which make my life colorful and exciting. I will continue striving for a better future for myself. And thank you all!
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Post comment Comment (4 replies)
- Reply sweetapple
- I totally understand your situation and your feeling. So happy for you that you have got through all the difficulties and started a new life. Though the process is a little tough and bitter, at least it could teach you a lesson about the society and reality. Anyway, you have had one step forward, so please believe in yourself and do your best whatever job you're now undertaking, good days would definitely come for you after the setbacks that you've experienced.
- Reply Candy.liu
- Your experience is really rich, to be stronger and stronger in mind, you will have your better future. Wish you the best.
- Reply tammytao
- Thank you honey. Thanks a lot for your comforting words. It's been really a long time that I haven't been here, but you are always here whenever I have something to say. Thank you. And yes, I will keep moving forward while life can never allow you to return back. Fighting!
sweetapple: I totally understand your situation and your feeling. So happy for you that you have got through all the difficulties and started a new life. Though t ...
- Reply tammytao
- It's really a tough year. I had too much in words but actually life was still boring and dull. But anyway, I need to move forward and I'll be much stronger. I think that might be the only advantage with aging, because when you experience enough, you will learn more and be more mature.
Candy.liu: Your experience is really rich, to be stronger and stronger in mind, you will have your better future. Wish you the best.
