whether accept or not,I realize,all of the sudden,many factors come to me,which overwhelm me.I have never thought that situation,what's more,I have no ability to change because it comes from god,is it a disaster? or rather a vague warning.then so what,should I be dull at changes one by one,then get old without rhythem and reason,never attempt to try in a  way  or others.Instinctly I just go through a common and ordinary life,just wanna get somethings from my hands.Never does I hope that get what I want at the cost of something more important.God,can you hear my saying?