My position is a copywriter ，but I have to contact new business and meet customers as the lack of manpower in marketing department. I admit that I am not good at personnel work .my friends told me that these difficulties are common which can almost be met by every freshman. Actually I know it but it is hard to accept in a short time. I haven never doubt my capacity of completing my task perfectly before. Nevertheless, I often have doubt my ability, such as skill of communication, patience and enthusiasm of work. I don’t know what is the real meaning of do the boring work all the time but I am exhausted every night when I come back to dormitory.  I only can see the big gap between dream and reality. You like some kind of job which seems interesting but when you really approach it and do it by yourself, you will find the other side hiding behind its beautiful appearance. I believe that I have relatively high ability of writing and thinking before, but recently trouble and problems often come to me and hopelessness and Inability are around me. I even begin to rethink my choice.Howener I know well that I must stick to my choice bravely with persistence. If I choose to give up easily, I never find what really belong to me. Even though I quit this job in the end, I must give myself a proper reason to leave without regrets. What I need most is courage and patience as my strong self-esteem makes me always feel very ashamed and unhappy when my boss points out my shortcoming in the work.

   Every night I feel very lonely and confused once I think of the future, the day we leave campus to struggle and compete in the society by ourselves. It must be a tough and severe journey. I tell myself that I am the architect of my own fate. I keep it in my mind that everybody must have a firm goal and try to attain it with enough determination.