I didn't know what happened the other night. I kissed the girl that I had a crush for. I know she likes me too. I know there's something I've been longing for out of marriage. I thought that would be something to exite life, but it turned out to be not that easy to have it. Now, I'm totally occupied by her image, and the beautiful moment of kissing. I knew we both enjoy it and enjoy recalling the details. But at the same time, we're all tortured by what to do for next step. I don't mean divorce or anything. We both know this is for the sake of the feelings, we never thought of and would never allowe anything else to happen. We both treat it as a beautiful dream, and that's it. The only problem with me now is that too much energy is spent everyday thinking of her, tasting the sweetness of that dream. I think I'm a lucky one.