i want to go abroad to improve my major. well, i don't have enough money.but ,one of my friend always encourage me to do as you think,just not considering too much.she suggsts me to broden my horizon only if you have experienced something.for example, if you want to study more about economics,perhaps america is the best option.she now is busy prepareing for her toefl.as what she told me, it's time for me to prepare my test.however, my english is so poor even though i have learned so long time,expecially my oral english.going abroad is better to someone who majors in economic.after all, it's the west who create this subject.yet how can i deal with the high expense.my family probably couldn't afford it. let me make a assuption.my family is always supporting me to do what i think was right.so, if i told the idea ,they must exhaust their ability to help me to realize this dream.but, it just only increase my guilty.i just want my parents live a happy and comfortable life.well, as we all know, affluent material life and rich spiritual life can be regard as the standard of a life of happiness.maybe that is why i choos this subject.but,everyting is not going as what i thought. now if wanting to find a princely income job,i must choose to stdy more,to become a master,or doctor,even to go abroad.

i just don't want my parent to burden so much on their shoulder,not only because they are too older compareing with other students'parents,but also because i just want them not to become famers who work all day long,but always earn so little.considering these things, i want to find a job after graduating.well,facing the grim job situation, i am afraid of the bad things which would fall on me--losing my job.so at this moment, i just want to pass the Graduate Candidate Test .