To have the past 2012 keep in mind, no matter happiness or sadness,yet it is time to say goodbye forever to 2012, but are you ready to welcome 2013? I doubt about it.

It is so complicated to sum up what I have been through for the past 2012. I could manage my working summary well, but how can I manage my life summary, I have many questions on myself. I question myself if I am good enough to control my temper and keep low doing the things I would like to experience. On contrary, all people around me could not accept once I keep silence, who think I am angry or not in a good mood. Who knows I sometimes want to keep my mouth shut up then concentrate on my future plans. I question myself if time to make a right decision. To find endless excuses by not to face the reality, though my intimate friend urged me from time to time.  There is always an answer that could help solve the question, and time could tell most of time.

I could count the next months what are waiting for me, and I am afraid of counting the days and living for it. This feeling, comes very naturaly, maybe I realise the youth is leaving me, but I am still in the same place, never step out, even just one small step...

To encourage myself,  too much reading to open my mind is very useful. 20's something like at my age, to against negative thoughts and energy seems very hard right now, but have to overcome it...