i feel better today after three day's consideration.i should design my own life and enjoy my husband's design. we can share our lives together, but we can't make the other have the same thought with you. i depentend on my husband too much.i hope he can have a  steady job with high salary, but he wants to do a chanlleged one even with low salary. he tells me he can learn a lot for that job,which can't measured with money. i don't understand, i think that job is full of risk. ok , i respect his decision, but also i make my wn decison, i should redesign my life again.