Now my heart is empty , I was only left with used-to-be's.

  I really want to receive some suprise from others,  but I know it is only a fantasy to me.

 CAN TIME STAY LONGER FOR ME IN THIS SPECIAL DAY.

  I had many things to do ,and my last years dream hasn't come ture.

  How could this day coming so early!

  Every year of  this day I will do some wishes to Heaven or God, however, I didn't receive what I wanted to have.

 I didn't know how to do to satisfied my inner needs.

 I am afraid to experience tommorrow for having nothing.

 Because tommorrow is my birthday. My tommorrow is another day.

 I want to receive sincere blessing from my relatives, friends and other people around me.

I willn't sleep well tonight for something, like consideration to the tommorrow,my future, my short-time and long-time goals, and many thingd related  to me.

 Maybe I am too passive toward life, maybe I am a perfectionist. I didn't know.

However, I will take active attitude toward life, I know I will receive what  I wanted to.