Sometimes I have to say that I was so disappointed to myself. What I thought a piece of cake was drove into a mess because of some unexpected reasons. When I was engaged in being the host of the English contest, actually I got fully ready for it. But as I was afraid of forgetting the prepared words. I made a copy of those words on some  notes. Finally I read those words even though I could recite it. And also I was so nervous when I was in the stage that I couldn’t express exactly what it is in my mind. Even it’s just a simply sentence, it makes me feel like I am a loser. Am I a dull boy? When I talked with a girl who was very important to me, I found myself was not capable of continue a conversation, as a matter of fact, the conversation was ending soon. Perhaps that girl thought I was a boring and reserved boy, do I have to admit it? I am never gonna admit defeat. I would never give up. I always believe where there is a will, there is a way. I should keep practicing all the time. I should improve my psychological diathesis consciously all the time.