I'm always wondering  what would it be like if one lives for no hopes. Years after years, I finally got myself an answer. If one hopes for nothing, he won't get hurt, but also bears no fruit.

    In the early days, I was not even aware of my innocence. Living in the ivory tower all along, I was shut away from the outside world, leading a carefree and desirable life. I did what I was told to be right .I hung out with children who my parents thought were well-behaved. And I never ever doubt that. However, as I grow older, every belief and value I ever  hold firmly began to crumble. And the real me came out from my little dark corners. It turned out that I was not that brave, even standing in front of the class scared the hell out of me. And I wasn't that perfect too, being a girl with scars on her face and compelled to wear braces. Yeah ,it was that time I felt depressed and a terrible fear went through me. I didn't realize it would change my life forever.