Merry Christmas, I want to say to everyone here. wish you all will have a nice, special night and memorized it in your deep heart.

Slilent Night is one of my favorite days, cause the night would end all of devil things and those unfortunate days, the all the blessings of a beautiful will come, just spread out your both hands to embrace this nice things. everything will be fine. I like those words, cause I believe that is ture. everything is always in change, like the lucky and the unfortunate is always change. maybe today you got a bad luck or passed a unhappy day, you will be all right soon. a day or several days later will have changed your mood and the bad situation.  although, somewhat sad feeling had embeded in my heart, just like a very strong boom shocked me then this scenes would float through my mind. I can't let them go, but I am trying to forget all of dreadful things surrounding me, however, I can not handle it, they will jump out from my mind to mess up my thinking and mood. I really really want to wash that memory away, stop thinking about it. I am deadly fear that all things would show up again when I am not there. just pray that it will be better tomorrow.

Now,  I developed a habit is praying, I would pray when I am free, I would like tell that things of sad or bad to god, just tell him what I don't want to talk about with friends, cause I think that those things is not worth talking about and be said again. I believe that the time is the best effective medicine to cure the shadow of heart.

At present, I am so miss my mon and dad, hope that everything of them is fine, so much desire to say" Merry Christmas " to them, though they are not believe the festival of foreigner, they are not understand why we are so crazy about it. cause they are not know the festival what really meant. someday they will know.  I still want to say "I love you both forever take care of yourselves, I will chin up for you both, nothing really matters, as long as you are all right, I am fine. don't worry so much always, everything gonna be fine."

My desire is that the members of my family be good health and safe at the special night, and my friends all will find out their happiness and be good health. loving you all forever. thank you all so much for stand my strange temper so long, I just do not know how to express the mood, maybe sometimes ignored your mood or hurt you all. when I keep silents you all know that must be the bad mood cause. I am so sorry that, and thanks a million for your generous and let it go and forget it soon. I am so lucky to meet you all here. I never forget you guys. 

It's my gloomy time, but it will be ended very soon, maybe ten minutes later it will be changed. cause it's a new day tomorrow, everything of bad will be ended here. I'll be fine.