In the twinkle of an eye, it's the last day in this year, silently and stealthily!

I always thought that I should write something to record this year, just be accountable to the past.  though it was composed of muddleheaded days and petty things, but some of them warm things is worth smiling and be precious. sweet days.

They were said that "how bitterly it was, forget the past. you would never mean anything but sad if you look back, sigh the brutal of ages and the youth had faded and the dreams was drowned by the river of reality, too fear to look back a glance, be afraid of an old flame burns my eyes."  all of these are not arranged, it just happens, so is life, people was contact with ages when we were born. from that moment, we were have growing gradually and grow older slowly.it is  important part of life, so accepting it and facing it calmly, waiting for old gracefully. I am a pessimistic, sometimes I can not accept letting it go, I started to respond more clearly about the forbidden zone of age, as time goes by, we would know much more deeply truth of life, then precipitate down  what  is always  you looking for the calm.

The past a year, it had blured, only a little messy memory floated in my mind.

Last year winter holiday, new year, I still can not completely adapt to the calendar from 200X to 2010. I went to part-time，met a lot of friends there, we were worked together lived together during the thirty or forty days, it's so little in my life, but I could not say a word to express what I got. I still can feel the sweet memories now.

this summer, I went to part-time again, To be a art teacher is to teach children painting. I ever had fantasied it, but I did not want to be a teacher in the future.

Be honest, I always adore them who are good teachers. I thought I never can do that, cause the teacher is a very holy occupation, I was afraid of my behaviour will ruin all beauty. I did not want to see that. I hesitated, I wanted to quit, however, I promised that I would come, I could't broke my word. so I was trying to persuade myself to accept that. in the end, I did. at that time I realized that we were always fear of the unknown, it would be let nature take its course when turn the unknown into known things. that's all, I became a art teacher for teaching children. I felt not so good at there, luckily there were smiling children and two so kind teachers or I could not stand so long there. it's so hot, especially there which made me lost my soul, I hated there no reasons,just purely do not like it. I wanted to escape form there, I seemed saw what was the all to appear in my nightmare through there all things. again and again. it was not the place fault, it was mine. at there, I felt pretty lonely, like the house too shabby to feel little warm, only one bed, I almost could not breathe. however, I experienced that I got it. this was my life.

I felt so pleased that I saw those painting of students when I left. cause I had witnessed their growing, maybe just a little, but I could tell. I did. so exciting.  at that time, I forgot I was hated there. perhaps I already adapted to it. nothing is important any more.

June, I took part in English CET4 and I passed. I was so lucky.

October, I started to write English diary, this was made me feel satisfying things. I love to do that forever, never give up, cause it is my favorite.

November, I took part in Professional Training in school, so hard for me, every day I felt nothing but exhausted, sometimes I wanted to quit but I thought about it clearly, I asked myself what I could do if I did not do that, so I told myself holded on to the end. so I did.  it seemed that this year I got a lot, it's my year. but I always felt  it sucks.

The new year is coming, let 's bless our tomorrow will be better. everything gonna be fine. be health and happy always. our parents are all right too.

Happy New year. all friends.