How embarrassed I am today!
When I stood there facing all of students, I speechless, I forgot all of what I prepare for saying, nothing came to my mind. I was too nervous to know what I should say. then that, I stumbled through the preparedness. It's awful. it's really a little unacceptable.
My eloquence is so bad, I always know that. it's just more sharper than before and it's breaking my heart. I realized how ignorant I am, how lacking of knowledge and experience.
Acutually, I should appreciate this experience of today, it make me see clearly my weakness, and how serious my weakness is. just like I got sick so long, however, I could not find it and realize its ponderance. Although today's experience embarrassed me, exposed my all weakness in front of everyone. I felt that I am shamed to see everybody, that makes me very upset. as a matter of fact, from another angle to think, may be it's a good thing for me. I will make up it gradually.
Some one told me everyone has weakness, do not take it so serious, the most important is how to make up it and keep a ordinary state of mind. that's right, I should do that.
Just forget today.