Long time no see here, much missing, much worry~~

Worry, I can not write cause long time no writing blog and you guys have forgotten me long time no being here.

As I speaking, so many words I want to say, however, it stick in my throat can not out. it seems that it has blown away by wind of the time.

Let me recall it properly……

It has past more than a month since new term begins, the net is working finally is the day before yesterday, everything is hard here, any a simple matter becames complicated here, speechless. The only good news is I've met some sincere friends, why don't "you" show me more fine things here, how I love you?

whatever, I will accustom to the life here at last.

There are nine days our class went to a ancient town for painting before the national day. those days give a great shock to me professionally. those days, we came out painting daytime, then we would gather together there where we live teachers would comment our paintings, not all of our paintings, just some good ones. during that time, it's really suffering, so upset. my paintings didn't choosed, just once. it surely extinguished the flame of my confidence. that way is definitely not imagined before.

After all, I was barely considered an all-round outstanding student in our class. came here, I am nobody, that's quite unacceptable a little bit. even began to doubt myself what's going on, what I can do well.

All I can say, there are so many good at painting persons. their professional talent have swamped mine as soon as I came here. someone outside people , there are skies beyond our skies, at present I understand what that sentence means deeply.

After cried once or twice, I told myself that's enough, that just released my upset briefly, I must change, then I will be saved.

I know more practise more better. I will do it every day. and see more consider more do more that would change.

alas, cheer up, do not forget what's your first dream and original thought at first.