Love seems too far away from me.
Long ago, I fell in love with a boy. But, just on one side. At that time, the world's colors faded away, only him in my eyes. I knew everything about him, when he laughed, when he played football with friends, when he went home by bicycle and so on. I used to locate his position as soon as possible wherever and whenever. I had done this for about eight years.
Now I realize that maybe in the last three years there was no love for him, just been used to his existence. As a result, when I went to university- we were in two different cities- I lost my mind. I didn't know who to care about. There was little interest for me to go to canteen, playground, classroom or any other places. I couldn't find the familiar figure in the rest of my life. WE WERE REALLY SEPARATED!
It took me about three years to get used to myself. Now I can go everywhere all alone without missing anyone. However, the lonely spirit world has been built up in my heart. It's really difficult for me to light up the passion of my life. I know I should create a better life for my own. I understand that I need to smile from my heart. I try to find other interest like Yoga, English to embellishment color of my life.
I'm so blessed to come across my dear friend, Vivian. Over the years, I have been with her. We do everything together, studing, shopping, etc. However, she choose to go abroad for further study and I will stay in Beijing. There is a little time left for us to spend together. We cherish every moment with each other.
What is love? I really don't understand it. My friendship has saved me in the half way after all. I really appreciate it. What's more, I have decided to have a piece of action in my postgraduate life. Now what I need to do is reprogram myself to see the good in me. Supporting me, are you?