This sentence wrote down a notebook of mine,I couldn't image that just when I was in middle school,

I had such a thoroughly understanding of my life.Lying  on the sleeper in the train to Hangzhou,

I read the old notebook carefully and found a lot of things,which belonged to me but I have lost them.

For example,instead of self-confidence,I am lying a flattering unction to my soul.

Facing my failure or painful situations,I console myself again and again:

It doesn't matter,you can go through all of these difficulities.

But I am in a deeply afraid of my furture for my being all talk and no deed.

The second,literary attainments.I used to loving Tang and Song poetry,reading,writing,and listenning.

However,I almost have forgotten all of them.Maybe I can recite the ancient poem of [é] and [chú hé].

In my memory,my first ancient poem I had learned was neither of them,its name is 官仓鼠 whose author is Cao Ye,a poet in Tang Dynasty：官仓老鼠大如斗，见人开仓亦不走。健儿无粮百姓饥，谁遣朝朝入君口。

it's the first Tang poem,the primer of Tang poem of mine.You can say it is the "master" who initiated me into the poem.

Third,courage.I became more and more carefully,timidly.

But almost everybody knows that the more fear the more happen.

Happened more and been afraid more of it.So it is a vicious circle,then a coward was born.

......

That's enought,I couldn't bear losing them one by one,but it did happened to me.

Kafka said,a true path for us rest on a line,it doesn't been tensed tightly on high,but close to the ground.

It's more like a rope used to stumble over people rather than a road who can walk on it.

Maybe I was stumbled over by the rope for such a long time.

I'm not a good player or an excellent tightrope walker who can walk on the higher as though walking upon flat ground.

But why don't I try to infinitely near it,keep up with it?

I hate the guy who betrays his words,I had hated myself in times gone by.

Listenning Stefanie singing the song "Talking with young Stefanie",

I thought that I need talking with young Shawle.Yes,I know,

since I had lost them one by one,I must find them back one by one.This is my mission.

So,there is no excuse.