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【The followed are something likes the barber who was chose to cut hair for the King who has a pair of donkey ears told his secret to a hole... I chose to write it down and even one day he will get it,I can struggle for his pardon...I know it's the fool's minds, but I am truely supplicated for pardon...Althought I want to change my profile for I am afraid that he will know it before the day I have the courage to tell him...But...sorry...I'm sorry...I feel so sorry...P...I am leaving and going to come now...it might be August or September...】
Staying here for four years,I know it's such a long time that can
make someone forgot something old and remember something new.
Once I told you it would last forever and ever.
But at that time I already knew it's just a lie for I couldn't help controlling myself.
Four years,just four year,four in seven of my cycle.
I laughted at this coward who daren't sleep at night alone.
Once I told you it would last forever and ever.
But at that time I already knew it's just a lie for I couldn't help controlling myself.
Four years,just four year,four in seven of my cycle.
I laughted at this coward who daren't sleep at night alone.
Suddenly I know why I insisted that that's impossible when Eagle talked about Little Mountain whose behavior likes me.
We are Sagittarius,typical ones,as for us,nothing will last for ever and nothing will remain.
I sent message to Little Mountain and he replyed me in a minute.
I said with my customary smile and felt sick suddenly-sick for my smile not for anyting else.
I told him I would give them my room for their honeymoon when I left.
We had a simple chat and said "goodbye" to each other.
As for my bestfriend's BF,he is similarly another Shawle Yin,yes,it's me.
And then I'd know what a painful experience for her 'cause she must face at the two troubled guys.
The pain is almost more than I could bear and she is uncomplaining all the time.
I said with my customary smile and felt sick suddenly-sick for my smile not for anyting else.
I told him I would give them my room for their honeymoon when I left.
We had a simple chat and said "goodbye" to each other.
As for my bestfriend's BF,he is similarly another Shawle Yin,yes,it's me.
And then I'd know what a painful experience for her 'cause she must face at the two troubled guys.
The pain is almost more than I could bear and she is uncomplaining all the time.
Nannar is coming,and I told her with my usual understatement.
Tell you the truth,it is indeed a betrayal for me.
Tell you the truth,it is indeed a betrayal for me.
For I couldn't bear the distance increasingly andthe interlude,
from now to April 2010, is also too long to insist on.
Last time,I couldn't forgive myself and suffer almost everyday in that year.
But just after less than one year,another one is coming...
Why I still have such a capricious temper after so many unforgivable things have happened?
Forgive me,I'm so sorry to apologize,but I know it's useless...
Last time,I couldn't forgive myself and suffer almost everyday in that year.
But just after less than one year,another one is coming...
Why I still have such a capricious temper after so many unforgivable things have happened?
Forgive me,I'm so sorry to apologize,but I know it's useless...
The only lucky thing is if both of us don't tell it out and nobody will know,of course,you won't.
To conceal things from you,I couldn't and I still cannot...But...
I know it's a lie but if I need to tell this lie to make you stay,I will,yes,I will.
God bless me,I won't go on without someone,you know,you are always knowing it,so,please...GOD,PLEASE...
God bless me,I won't go on without someone,you know,you are always knowing it,so,please...GOD,PLEASE...
I was listenning the song you send me last time for a whole day.But it didn't work...
You know,I couldn't sleep all the time,even listenning the music you send,thinking of all lovely things you gave,
I told myself so many times that time,space and money,all of them are not problems...
I didn't tell you I am not strong enough to stand this sick for I don't want to make you feel worried about me...
I am not the person who has electra complex,who is frigide,who always lets you feel uneasy about my freeness..
Sorry...I am so sorry...We did noting just kissed and hugged...that's true,please do believe me...
I...just...just miss you so much...sosososososososososo...much...
You know,the man with whom I am falling love is YOU,p...it's you,I LOVE YOU...
even last night I kissed and hugged the other person...What can I do...I couldn't image any more...
Sorry...to both of you...Maybe someone will snapp me and my image as a good girl has ruined...
Although you're just 20 now,two years later,I MUST be right there next to you for I'm pissed off...
You know,I couldn't sleep all the time,even listenning the music you send,thinking of all lovely things you gave,
I told myself so many times that time,space and money,all of them are not problems...
I didn't tell you I am not strong enough to stand this sick for I don't want to make you feel worried about me...
I am not the person who has electra complex,who is frigide,who always lets you feel uneasy about my freeness..
Sorry...I am so sorry...We did noting just kissed and hugged...that's true,please do believe me...
I...just...just miss you so much...sosososososososososo...much...
You know,the man with whom I am falling love is YOU,p...it's you,I LOVE YOU...
even last night I kissed and hugged the other person...What can I do...I couldn't image any more...
Sorry...to both of you...Maybe someone will snapp me and my image as a good girl has ruined...
Although you're just 20 now,two years later,I MUST be right there next to you for I'm pissed off...
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- Reply shawle
- woods: My Sweet Sister Francis~Appreciating for you.
For you didn't snapp me and thought me as a bad woman...
After several hours' painting,I feel a little better now.
I think I can deal with this irritating thing in a better way.
- Reply woods
- shawle: Appreciating for you.You're not.Whatever.You are free to make your own choice I think.Trust the feeling of yourself for the only thing you can do is to be responsible for yourself.Be happy.Young lady.
For you didn't snapp me and thought me as a bad woman...
After several hours' painting,I feel a little better now.
I think I can
