I just realized tomorrow never comes when i woke up in the middle of a night. I felt so sad that how pathatic i was to have wasted so many good days of mine in waiting for tomorrow to come, hoping someone would actually come to their sense that they would come to me and say you are a nice person, and the only one i could possibly spend the rest of my life with…

Even though i know how tiny the chances are for such a thing to happen in my life. I never doubted it before that tomorrow will finally come, and things would all change for the better. But now, i start to wonder if it is true and worth believing.

I have made several attempts to change my life style or characteristics, etc, trying to adapt to someone else’s life, trying to fit in, which never worked for me.

People say the real wealth is what you are, not what you have. I think they are right. Maybe i don’t need to change anything about myself. I just need to stop believing tomorrow will come, and things would come out better.

I can only do my best