White snow continued last night and ended this morning. I opened eyes, the light went through the curtain and cast on the ceiling reflexed much more bright. This is a quite similar scene dates back to the time when I was young in winter, I got up in the very early morning, and went outside playing on the snowy ground. Fellows were all happy regardless of the wet shoes soaked in the muddy snow earth. At that time we did not care at all, though there was an unavoidable beat from parents. Interesting! Now it is not that common to meet snow in winter here. Probably the global warming has effected on some reasons.
Some trees are broken down because of heavy snow, others are lucky to stay intact. We did not expcet it was snowing, even the weather forecast just reported it was raining. Finally it turns out something at sometimes is not going as well as controlled. Those survived proceed with life. To be grateful to be alive from the mercy of nature. Actually it teaches us to know the importance of living at every second we can have. After baptism of snow, strong survivors stay alive. After attack of storm, best living creatures adapted to shakable changing. They all endure in silence. We can sense it if we really observe.
So comes the idea of life going as we can do it well. Brief life is not that really long. I checked my calendar, this December impressed me a lot. All of another eleven pages are fully marked with my big Xs. An X marked per day as the end of yesterday, a new beginning of today. I turned back to review those events and activities I did before recorded on the calendar. There are only 26 days left in the rest of this year. I am full with that.
What we experienced in every single moment contributes to what we gained. Everyday, news of accidents, diseases, conflits, wars, slaughters and terror attacks deprived the innocent of life, we can hear them a lot. On this level, it is real a tough journey if we can smoothly go through the entire life. What else can be to blame? Surely, we have many complaints. Pressures come from life and work, urgence of marrige, difficulities of marraige management, crisis of relationship, hardship of life struggling, unexpected affairs come with no clues. We have to deal with them, usually feel exhausted and overwhelmed, even sink into extreme despression. It hurts to be painful. While, after years of working and living, most of those misreable things to be dealt at hand are no longer hard to cope with again. Because growth matures us to be deliberate. Only if we can, there are not problems.
Another point is about solitude. I found friends talked about this. Actually whatever we are out going or not, solitude is always there when we are alone. We come back home after work, sit around with no one else nearby after party, we are all easily going to feel lonely. Loneliness comes when we do not know and have no ideas what to do, or suddenly step into the blank of unknown life. Uncertainties usually frighten us to be at an unfixed destination, because we need to be sure we are safe and warm at where we are. Arrange well, do well, feel confident on the basis of life schedule, will reduce and alleviate such an inner terror.