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Beyond a “Flawless” Body: A Newfound Image of Me
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There were times when I was dying to get out of my body. I honesty did not like who I was, the way I was, and the way I looked. As I matured, these strong emotions finally took their toll.
And then I realized that outer appearance wasn’t the only important thing in life, and I overcame my pessimistic perspectives about myself. Of all the lessons I’ve learned so far in my 20 years on earth, gaining a positive body image has been the hardest one to grasp.
These days, when we turn on the TV, we are exposed to sickly thin celebrities showing off the latest trends, which usually-well, mostly-begin with a pair of pants below the hips. We are exposed to music videos featuring barely-clothed girls with “flawless” bodies.
I remember wanting to be as thin as these girls. I changed my eating habits by only eating an apple for lunch, but it never worked out.
I do tried to do 40 sit-ups every other day, so my tummy could get as flat as a washboard. When that didn’t work, I was sad and angry. Why couldn’t I be lucky like those girls on TV and be flawless?
As time went by, reality began to set into my mind. I asked myself questions: If I’m really smart, why don’t I feel that way? If I am really beautiful, why do I feel so badly? I felt like I wasn’t getting enough information or help from family or friends. They didn’t satisfy me. I decided to get answers for myself.
A New Outlook
I started reading very intriguing books, so I would not only think about things like bodies.
Then I became more involved in activities in my school and surrounding areas. Visited sick children at hospitals, volunteered at homes for elderly. By volunteering and making decent grades, I didn’t enhance my looks, but I did enhance my knowledge. This made me feel excellent.
I also did physical activities, I joined track and gymnastics. This made me feel stronger. Both physically and mentally.
Being Beautiful
I don’t have society’s “perfect” body. But I love my body. I love the components of my body, which include physical and emotional strength, intelligence, pride, and a soul. It’s OK to love your body the way it is-round, thick, thin, square…whatever.
It’s all about you adding to the physical beauty you were born with. And I don’t mean only with makeup and clothes, but with knowledge gained from real-world experience.
Once you gain real-world knowledge, you realize that you’re beautiful from the inside out to the outside in.
And then I realized that outer appearance wasn’t the only important thing in life, and I overcame my pessimistic perspectives about myself. Of all the lessons I’ve learned so far in my 20 years on earth, gaining a positive body image has been the hardest one to grasp.
These days, when we turn on the TV, we are exposed to sickly thin celebrities showing off the latest trends, which usually-well, mostly-begin with a pair of pants below the hips. We are exposed to music videos featuring barely-clothed girls with “flawless” bodies.
I remember wanting to be as thin as these girls. I changed my eating habits by only eating an apple for lunch, but it never worked out.
I do tried to do 40 sit-ups every other day, so my tummy could get as flat as a washboard. When that didn’t work, I was sad and angry. Why couldn’t I be lucky like those girls on TV and be flawless?
As time went by, reality began to set into my mind. I asked myself questions: If I’m really smart, why don’t I feel that way? If I am really beautiful, why do I feel so badly? I felt like I wasn’t getting enough information or help from family or friends. They didn’t satisfy me. I decided to get answers for myself.
A New Outlook
I started reading very intriguing books, so I would not only think about things like bodies.
Then I became more involved in activities in my school and surrounding areas. Visited sick children at hospitals, volunteered at homes for elderly. By volunteering and making decent grades, I didn’t enhance my looks, but I did enhance my knowledge. This made me feel excellent.
I also did physical activities, I joined track and gymnastics. This made me feel stronger. Both physically and mentally.
Being Beautiful
I don’t have society’s “perfect” body. But I love my body. I love the components of my body, which include physical and emotional strength, intelligence, pride, and a soul. It’s OK to love your body the way it is-round, thick, thin, square…whatever.
It’s all about you adding to the physical beauty you were born with. And I don’t mean only with makeup and clothes, but with knowledge gained from real-world experience.
Once you gain real-world knowledge, you realize that you’re beautiful from the inside out to the outside in.
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Post comment Comment (2 replies)
- Reply bluephoebe
- Reading your blog, I can't help but think of Drop Dead Diva, one of my favorite American drama. it tells a story about an once drop dead goreous model somehow being trapped in a overweight plainlooking body. honestly, outer appearance matters , in many way, in reality. however we should not let it become the only factor to define our life. Drop dead diva tells us an intelligent mind combines with a warm kind heart could also help us to find true happiness even without help of outside beauty. from your words, i could tell you are such a wonderful girl. though i don't know what you look like, you are beautiful to me
- Reply JuneLee8023
- thanks!!! thanks for your words!
