Every time when I am alone, I feel that I don't belong to the noisy world, though there are many people aroud me, I just feel very cold. The weather is so hateful, I hate raining, it makes me easy to be immersed in blue. I know I can't be a big man, I just want to live an easy and peaceful life. But the way I live is just inconsistent. I can't help it. there are two "me" inside my heart. they are always fighting against each other.
Several years ago i planed 10-year plan to be a vagabondish, pack and walk along the beautiful nature, to touch the beauty. I needn't know the people's name but I can smile to them from my heart......I needn't know the destination.
I wish I can realise my dream, but maybe I have too many things to think of and I can't put them down. It's very hard for me to make decision. I'm very confused.