maybe in this world, the most elusive knowledge is self-knowledge, i fail to picture my psyche for all thoses years,it just like an insubstantial spirit inside keeping me restive day and night.i don't quite know what it expect from me precisely, but at least one thing is clear,that is it wants change, any kind of change will count.i just can remain what i am,cause part of me inside is dying from being stagnant for too long.
so,just keep going,even backwards to become the past myself,the one i used to be,the one once so familiar,but now seldom recalled. i said to the inside me this also can be a welcome change, and i thought she agreed with a smile.