pen and paper , i have to say , " long time no see ". i am too lazy to let my feelins show .

                                                           career

  trying to be a can-do , i know , that is the only way to go for a girl ,especially who always desire to be a career woman ,bein-g economically independent . but now , how come i do something to be near with my dream ? i really have no idea now . pro-bably i aimed too high in the past so that up till now i haven't reached anywhere yet .

                                                            love

  god is so harsh to me .he couldn't give me the last chance to see him ,even just have a look . most of time , i do think there  is nowhere i would rather be .he is the one for me .love or career , which one should i choose ?the former or the later , of cou-rse the later .so i am destinated to be alone , maybe in my lifetime .

                                                            family

  mom has devoted her whole life to our family ,no doubt she must have suffered so much more than i could have known before.i guess so did dad . i have to take good care of them and try my best to make them happy ,even manage to please them .less than two months , i have changed so much . life teached me a lesson , and what i have learned made me a wiser .

  no longer am i a child . i should learn everything , even from ABCs .

  try to be tough !