Really long time no write some,I almost forgot how  to express my feeling in English.Although I always chat with my friend in baidu keungeun bar,My English doesn't seem to be improved.Sigh.........My life,is in mess .Everyday,surf on the internet,send resumes,eat,sleep....My daily routine.I really hate this.I hate waiting for the calls that asks me for a interview;I hate all the interviewers tell me to wait for the results of the interview;I hate waiting for sth that is not sure.I hate that I'm totally in uncertain condition.I want to strive for my future,but I don't know how.This made me feel very frustrated.

        I exactly know what my aim is,but I'm  lost in my way to pursue my dream.Since I was little,I'm a introverted and quiet  girl.I even can't open my mouth to talk to others voluntarily.I'm so shy, now it's better,but for many  times I will not feel easy when I meet people and talk to them.it's my personality that won't be easy to change.I need to be  more open to others and become much outgoing. I know,I will try my best to do it.Communicate with others more often.Fighting,yes,I can.

       every difficulty I face now will become  my treasures  in my following life.Maybe at that time when I recall what I'm experiencing now ,I will feel comforted and thank for god giving me this chance to go through it.I gain and learn  a lot  from that difficulty.Maybe difficulty will get me in the way,but the sense of pursuing success pushes me to defeat all the obstacles and win.

        ah,I don't know what I write......complain a lot,I just want to let it all hang out....Nothing left,no worries,no frustration,no hate........I know it's only a daydream,but I hope  it could last  for some minutes.Let me escape from it for a while.

       Feeling much  better when I write this journal...I'm a contraditory person................................